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| Where to begin...? I've been away from my virtual publications for too long I guess. I've been so caught up in the torrent that is my life that I guess I forgot to keep everyone informed. For those of you that read these thoughts that is. Hell maybe none of you do and thats alright because I'm pretty sure I started this back in the day to keep track of my thoughts for myself. So what has changed in my life? Well that's too broad a question, so then lets start what what hasn't changed: My mother (I love her to death) is still crazy and still misses me too much for her own good. I still miss my family and friends but am wary about going home. It seems that so much has changed with all the people I cared about there that I don't want to face the change. I find myself in a rough patch in my life (yet again; oh the young adult life). Lots of things pressuring me from all directions at once, family troubles, work drama (competition, promotions, schools, deployment??? and PT scores) relationship issues ( or the lack-there-of and inability to find someone to be with here that I like), and all kinds of crap that is so trivial and yet so annoying at the same time. But I find myself looking back and seeing how much my life has changed in this past year. Yes thats right I've been an active duty enlisted Infantry soldier for a whole year today. Its seems that is so little time everything about everything can change and yet how far I've come as a person, man, and adult I still have so far, far to go. Sometime I feel like I have the weight of the world pressing down upon me and I struggle to find release, from work, stress, and woe; but I find my options slowly dwindling. Video games, porn, and just about everything else I liked to do are starting to loose their sway. I've recently become obsessed about Warhammer 40K and I have been reading the books for years, but I started painting the models for the therapeutic aspect of the brush strokes. Lately even this has started to loose my interest. I don't know what is wrong with me but it seems that whatever it is no one will tell me what it is. I had a conversation today with probably the one person that I care the most about in the world today and for once it was pleasant, albeit full of banter and corralling. She told me of her successes and goals and of her life and the life of her love and for once it didn't bother me. It made me a little uneasy at first but then I sucked it up and realized that he's not going anywhere and he shouldn't anyway. She seems happy even though a bit stressed (as always) so its good that even when people you love change, its not always for the worst and no always completely. It was also quite odd that I found myself speaking to her on the day that is the anniversary of my exeunt from the 'Grove and off to a life of adventure (yeah right) in the US Army. Strange that one of the dominant factors that I leave and go about my life as I see fit without her texts me out of the blue, which of course led to a phone conversation. Now here I am in the midst of change, everything, everyone, myself and mind as well. I hope that I can continue to trudge ever onwards until I find whatever lifeline that is waiting to bring me out of this low place that my heart and mind seem to be in. Until then I shall continue to strengthen my mind and body, and seek to cleanse and heal my soul.
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| Greetings website sorry I've been away so long. There is too much to post at the moment but there is a few things I would like to post in reaction to my past few months here at Ft. Lewis.
1- Bitches suck and there are too many underagers wandering around Seattle, Tacoma, and the Lakewood areas. Its really sad that I haven't found a decent girl around here yet, its been 3 damn months.
2- I've been hella-fucked up retarded drunk last night it has been the cure for a lot of the blues as of recently. I love my guys here at C/4-23IN and I can't wait to start really fucking training with them. The Army life is truly the life for me I just hope that I can keep the motivation to stay with it through my 20+ years because I don't know what else I would do. I also hope that if someone special enters my life that they have the strength to cope with my career, I know the last few women in my life have failed. My mom calls me everyday like I'm in college, she just doesn't get that this is the real deal.
3- I can't wait to get to fucking Iraq. Among all the craziness of combat, a country full of people that want to kill you, there is terrible cell phone service for Americans so NO CALLS! I can't wait for the peace brought by war. The cure for the blues is action, whatever action that is.
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| Its been a long time since I posted anything on this thing, but I kinda like the way my thoughts flow into text. It's doubtful that anyone even reads this anymore but that's ok I didn't make it for them, I made it for myself. Well I made it through OSUT (basic and AIT) without too much trouble. It was tough and challenging but it was also alot of fun. The hardest part by far was living with the same 57 guys all day everyday. We were tight knit when it came time to perform, but after we brought home a victory it was straight back to elementry school time. The sad thing is that we only had a handful of younger guys (17-19) in my platoon because of us all being SF recruits. Yet we still bumped heads all the freakin' time. My senior drill sergeant said it the best at the beginning of the cycle and that was this: "Most of you are older and at least have SOME college, if not a full degree. You all are going to have trouble with doing what you need to do because you will try and think too much." He couldn't have said it better. Most of the time it was why this, why that, why this way, why not my way, etc. It got to be really frustrating have soooo many chiefs and no indians to do the work. All in all though I had a great expirence and most of the guys I was with I wouldn't trade for anyone in the world. Now what really sucks is that I'm stuck in Airborne hold for another 9 days. It was 2 weeks but I've already successfully passed the first work week of detail. I spent 4 of my 5 days working all day long in the Shugart Rigging Facility with guys from Company E, 1-507th which is the parachute riggers for my unit here at Airborne School. Currently I am in Company B, 1-507th which is hold right now and next week I go up to Company A to start inprocessing for Airborne School, and A company should be my unit for the duration of the course. Working with the riggers is long and tiring, but rewarding and fullfilling work. I packed 400+ fully rigged parachutes into bins for movement to the airstrip for the jumpers on my first day. Now repeat that 4 times lol. I got off work at about 1630 everyday and have the rest of my night to myself til 0550 the next morning. Having nights and weekends off is pretty awesome coming straight from OSUT. I pretty much spend my nights working out and talking on the phone and hanging out at the enlisted club. Hahahahaha that's pretty much all there is to do around the school anyway. That's really all life is at this point for me, the same old shit and a different day, heh pretty much like anyone else on the planet. I can't wait to start jump school, at least it'll be a change, not to mention cool as fuck!!! ~MPLC~ | | |
| So yea... I shot a sharpshooter at BRM qauls this weekend! I got 32 out of 40 targets. So basically that means don't fuck with me because I can cap you for real now lol. Basic is flying by, I'm in White Phase; week 5. This week we are going to be training on US weapons, so yeah thats like grenades, machine guns, AT4 rocket launchers and other such cool manly things. I hope to get at all of you again very soon, however snail mail is pretty much all I can get, so here is my address here:
RN#420 PFC Lewis-Cooper, Micheal P.
F Co. 2-19th INF ITB
9050 Kinsman Drive
Ft. Benning, GA 31905-4926
SO WRITE ME IF YOU CARE AND ALL THAT BULLSHIT!!! | | |
| WOOOHOOOO Done with Red Phase! 4 hr pass, hope to tty all soon! | | |
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